Day vs. night

[one day you wake up with joy in your heart, sun shining in your window, a sense of new hope "I can conquer the world! I am different. I will make my life work. I will prove everyone wrong - I AM a good person.

then 'night' hits and your world has flipped upside down. You see the horror of your life staring you in the face, you're trapped and can no longer get out. A cloud follows you wherever you go. You can no longer run from it - you constantly fall inside the traps. You are trapped. You are alone. - You are not a good person.

Name calling - roles right off your back. You live with spite. You've lost so much that you can't figure out how to gain control again. Your words mean nothing. You are left with nothing. You are suffering from the effects of a life you chose. A life you don't necessarily want to continue being in. The question lies . . . after the treatment and the time, and the medication - what do you do? who are you? Where do you go from here?]