What is everything for?
You try to help people and you try to love people but it all ends up becoming extremely hurtful and painful. I have these:
unbearable, debilitating, suppressive standards that no one can win in. How can you love someone with those standards?
That's not love! That control! Protecting yourself from feeling and falling, being alive!
I thought that he had a magic key so that I would finally not fell alone. Then to come across someone who understood me, didn't make me feel alone - then it not be right! Now, I question everything, nothing makes sense.
...unsafe feelings spend you out of control. Don't allow you to make the right decisions. Feelings amount to what??? Feel for hurt?
The moment I allowed myself to feel something . . . My air, my oxygen, my breath, my coming to life! - destroys the people that I love.
. . . deepest recesses of your thinking - I want to satisfy by dark pleasures - revenge!
What is love?
What we know about love is what we've experienced before.
from a scene in the show HAWTHORNE
(Jada in her therapy session)